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Horrors.....

Sat Jul 11, 2009, 1:47 PM
My grandfather is terminal........

Well he's not really my grandfather, but he's the closest thing I've ever had to one. I never knew my real grandfather and this man has always been there for me. Last year he found out he had prosthetic cancer and he's been going through chemo. We all thought it was working....but this morning, he was declared terminal. They aren't even sure if he'll make it through the night.

I want to see him....but I can't. My fear of hospitals and seeing him like that would totally freak me out. How selfish is that? I won't even go see my own grandfather on his death bed!!!! Hell I'm pathetic........

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~ShiroKiba15 Jul 11, 2009, 2:43:12 PM
No, its probably that u don't want to see ur grandaddy for the last time to say goob bye. But if u go with ur family or someone who's close to you to enter the hospitle.....I'm jogging some thoughts

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~crow-ash Jul 11, 2009, 2:45:01 PM
i have no problem saying goodbye...that i know of at least and even if that were the case......theres no one im close to to go with

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~ShiroKiba15 Jul 11, 2009, 2:58:41 PM
Well u better find that charm call courage and go in

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~crow-ash Jul 11, 2009, 3:00:36 PM
heh the only place courage has ever played in my life is when it comes to stupid stuff...sadly i dont think this counts

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~ShiroKiba15 Jul 11, 2009, 3:15:24 PM
No kidding it happens to alot of us

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~crow-ash Jul 11, 2009, 3:18:49 PM
yeah but whats buggin me the most is that im not upset hes dying but rather....im upset that im looking forward to seeing him after hes died.....thats just sick

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~ShiroKiba15 Jul 11, 2009, 3:21:16 PM
ur disturbed or haertless

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The midnite hour is close at hand, Creatures crawl in search of blood.
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~crow-ash Jul 11, 2009, 3:23:50 PM
yeah i know...thats one reason i cant bring myself to go...im pretty sure me freaking would beme laughing at his condition...and i have enough heart not to put him through that...he's to important

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